So...it's been awhile.

With the end of school back in April, my summer class in May, starting back at CBG in June, and working all of June/July I have struggled with keeping this updated....as you can see this is my first post since April 10th.

I've realized that I love writing and expressing my feelings much more than I actually thought I did. This is a great way to get my feelings out there, without having to verbally express them. Now while I sit here and my CAPS lock key keeps sticking, it's 12:07 and I'm just laying in bed at my uncles house.

Through all that has come and gone these past few months, and as July is about to end and August begin, I have realized how crazy fast life is going by and quite frankly I DON'T LIKE IT. There's so much stuff that has been going on in the world around me, and it's starting to scare me. I'm entering my junior year of college and I'll be turning 20 on the 18th and as I keep getting closer and closer to the real world, the more I want to just curl up into a ball and go back to Miss Polly's house and never leave.

As far as I'm concerned, 2014 has been a terrible year. I have made a lot of mistakes, but then again I have learned a lot. Through all of this I have changed my major to History, and have decided to focus more on my schooling and future plans than my hobbies and skills that I used to focus on. This is making me a lot more driven, and making me realize what is truly important and valuable in my life. Though I have made a lot of mistakes, I am learning from them, and paying my price for them.

This summer I took English 206 as a kind of May-mester class. I ended up making a B in it, when I really needed an A, but it's ok. I started my second summer as a counselor at Camp Burnt Gin, and I have made some amazing new friends since I've been back. Camp is my safe haven, and if I could live there year round, I probably would. The long days, and the short nights, the tears and the fights make it all worth while.

This summer has flown by, and we even celebrated Christopher's 26th birthday. BOOMYAH TO THE PEOPLE WHO THOUGHT HE WOULD BE DEAD OR IN AN INSTITUTION BECAUSE HE HAS BEEN KICKING BUTT AND TAKING NAMES IN THE COOKING INDUSTRY. I'm proud to say that not only is he my big brother, but he has become my best friend. We still fight, but at the end of the day I know I can count on him to make everything better, or even for a little humor when I need it.

As the summer is winding down, and I start my last week at CBG on Friday I'm realizing how blessed I am to still have the opportunities and privileges that I still have after everything that has happened. God is still God and He is still good.

It's the small things in life....the hugs from campers, the messages from staff at AU that says "I'm praying for you" (Thank you Becky Walker for making my day), and the friendships I have made this summer, I can't continuously dwell on the past when I have so many positive things coming from all of this.

I don't know what I did to deserve this life that I have. I'm blessed with an amazing university, a set of two amazing and providing parents, a roof over my head at all times, a car to drive, a phone, a buttload of amazing and talented friends, and life in general.

Stay tuned to see all of my pictures I have collected over the past few months. :)

Keep on dreaming even if it breaks your heart.

LGoody.